Friday, July 29, 2011

Sadness vs Fear

We went to see a movie recently and in the movie some kids were on sort of a life-of-death scavenger hunt. One of the items they needed was in a vault protected by a huge, hideously ugly dragon. The dragon's keepers had some weird "shakers" with them and shook them as they approached the dragon who immediately went from fierce to trembling, cowering in fear. The keepers said that the dragon'd been trained to expect pain at the sound. So, tho' this dragon was well able to defeat any tiny human coming along, simply having its memories of being hurt stimulated completely debilitated it.

I believe most parents have ultimately trained up their children in the same way. 

I had an experience the other night with my 3-yr old that really proved the point that spanking is bad parenting. 

Tori is the only child of my 8 who has never been struck by me. I have never spanked her. We stopped spanking in this house when the 7th child was around 18 mos. old. And, so seeing her reactions to things is very "telling". It makes me so sad that it took so long for us to stop spanking. She is the only child of the 8 who reacts to things the way she does, and it is not just because of her temperament and personality.

What happened was for "whatever reason" that is likely in all honesty "just because" Tori decided while she was playing to cut loose and pee (about a half a gallon!) on one of our brand new very expensive dining room chairs. They have built-in cushions and I dunno how you all feel about pee in your furniture, but, I really dislike it. ;) So, my instant reaction was actually a lot of anger. I spoke to her very angrily, gruffly and harshly with the deep "angry mom" tone and a big-time angry face. I grabbed her arm and moved her aside in a rough manner and basically...I failed with my reaction. If "love does not take into account a wrong suffered" I totally forgot about love when I reacted to her because I was taking this into account. This stupid chair suddenly became more important to me than Tori.

But, this isn't about me and how not right I do stuff yet...it's about Tori and how right I believe someday she will do stuff. Because, her reaction was not like any of the other children's reactions have ever been.

When I realized what she'd done and began erupting in anger, she did not...
...get that "deer in headlights" look on her face.
She did not begin to plead with me, "It was an accident!"
She made no excuses.
She had no fear in her eyes.
But, the look on her face was one of intense grief. Her little heart was totally broken because I was mad at her.

While I took the chair off to see about cleaning it, she ran and curled up on my bed and began weeping. When my husband talked to her and asked her what was wrong she said, "Mommy's mad at me. I peed on her chair."


James says, "if we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness."

If we confess...if we can admit what we've done...God will fix us.

This process is very difficult for those who have been taught to "expect pain" at the sound of a parent's angry voice. For a child who has been trained to expect pain when they do wrong, their focus is not on the wrong they've done...their focus is not on the fact that they've disappointed their parent...their focus is on themselves and on self-preservation; how to hide from the pain they're expecting.

I'm sad that I robbed my other 7 children of this freedom. But, I am excited for Tori that as she goes thru life that in all her relationships, including her relationship with God, that when she does wrong she'll be able to clearly see what she's done, she'll be able to feel first and foremost the pain that flows naturally from within when we realize we've done wrong, and she'll be able to freely (without fear) confess her sins (go to the one she's offended and apologize without making excuses)...and God will then be free to forgive her and cleanse her.




Monday, July 4, 2011

Preconceived Ideas

Imagine…you fill out your tax return and it says you're getting $1,000 back this year…but when the return arrives there is a letter stating that you've miscalculated and that the correct amount is actually written on the check they've sent you: $10,000. What would you do? How would you react?

Now, imagine…you fill out your tax return and it says you're getting $100,000 back this year! But, when the return arrives there is a letter stating that you've miscalculated and that the correct amount is actually written on the check they've sent you: $10,000. What would you do? How would you react?

Why is it then, that receiving the same amount of money from the gov't could produce such strongly different reactions?

It would seem that it not the actual "thing" we so much react to as it is our preconceived ideas about whatever it is.

Back in May I happened to turn on the TV and see a judge reading the rules to a jury for a trial which was just starting. I thought this was something "educational" so I sat and watched. THEN…the atty's were to give their opening remarks. I had never seen this before, either, so I thought I'd watch that, too, for the education. By the end of that day, I was sucked-in. And, I have tried to follow the Casey Anthony trial every day since when I have been able.

For me, I had seen the hype on TV about it 3 years ago when I was in a hotel in Guatemala City. Back then the media sure made it look like she was some rotten, evil, child-killer. So, when I heard the State's opening remarks my opinion was, "Burn her! She's a witch!" Right? I thought that until the defense made their opening remarks. Then, I sat rubbing my chin wondering, "hmmm…"

I had preconceived ideas about this case. I believe that that has had to have affected everything about how I have seen the whole trial. And, since today is the 4th of July…a day where we're thinking about "Freedom"…you could say that preconceived ideas rob you of your freedom to experience things as they truly are.

So, I am really "excited" to see what the jury comes back with. The jury is chosen based on them having no preconceived ideas or knowledge about the case. Their introduction to this case was not thru "Bill O'Reilly" or "Greta" or any of those Fox News' opinionated talk shows in the evening, but, merely by a presentation of the evidence…

I can't wait to see how they return the verdict based on merely the facts.

And, it makes me wonder if when Jesus said, "Don't judge"…if He'd maybe He meant, "Don't have preconceived ideas about people"…

You see a person with black fingernails and dark black eyeliner and immediately you form an opinion of that person even before you've spoken to them…that's judging. And, having those preconceived ideas about people before you meet them will affect every interaction you have with them…and that's kinda' sad. (How many friends do we miss out on in life because we decide how someone is and who they are before we even get to know them?)

It's also one reason to make sure to present yourself in a way to the world that their preconceived idea of you will be a good one…

It's also, now that I think of it, since this is where I always end up, it's another reason why the "doctrine of Original Sin" is so deadly serious in the world because it puts a preconceived buncha' beliefs about babies in parents' heads even before that baby is born. It robs you of your freedom to experience your newborn baby as they truly are. If you believe your baby is born a "sinner" then when that baby cries out to you, the way you see their cry is going to be tainted and you will be inhibited in your ability to see how your behavior is affecting your child, and you will be led to follow teachers and parenting practices that actually damage your child's developing brain and set them up for social struggles and failure the rest of their life…

Those are just my random thoughts for the day…

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